I started this blog back in 2012, as my youngest child was ready to leave the nest. When I began writing I can now admit it was another attempt on my part to avoid the obvious complications developing in my life and marriage. My attempt to conceal the troubles I knew were approaching, and to continue with the one flaw I was so good at nurturing, Denial.
In the past several years, I made a few tries at writing, but reliving even one event proved to be more painful than it's original. ( just now I realized it was my way of continuing to avoid acknowledging the situation exists)
To remind you, just in case you had forgotten, or never have read anything I've previously written; my grammar sucks. I don't speak English well, and I certainly don't write any better than I talk. One of my flaws That is much easier to accept. Sad part, English is my first language. Also, I tend to "chase rabbits". I go off topic. I may even start telling one story and finish with something completely different. I write just like I talk. When a thought comes into my mind I immediately share it for fear It may never be heard. Because if I have to wait for the perfect opportunity to share, I'll forget. This amazing trait of "forgetting, or not remembering" has been compounded by certain events in the past two years I will discuss another time.
Today, I am not trying to share any life changing words of wisdom or revelations that I've had as a result of the changes in my life. It's just my way of slowly, very slowly, trying to rejoin the human Race.
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